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It is past midnight and I find myself staring out the window to take in the city skyline. I have not been feeling myself lately. Perhaps, it is the third lock-down that is getting to me, or the fact that I feel trapped in an endless loop with no escape. From the very beginning of Covid-19 I have been strong, more or less caught up in a world of my own making, whether that be in the picturesque landscape of "The Tragic Tale of Teddy Woven" or "Awakening." I had always found a place to escape, but not this time...
A couple of nights ago I woke up from a vivid nightmare and immediately rolled over in my bed to snatch at my cellphone. I suppose it was the closest thing to me having a mental breakdown because I googled a hotel and immediately booked it. After the hotel was booked, I slumped back down into my bed and fell asleep. Sometimes are subconscious mind is trying to tell us something in our dreams. I don't think it was a mistake that I had that nightmare, or the fact that I have not been able to read or write a single book in weeks. I feel guilty for creating a backlog of books that I want to review, but I am at the point where I mentally cannot do it anymore. This virus that spread across the world impacted people in a variety of ways. I hear countless stories from friends near and afar, and it is saddening to witness the devastation that has swept across the world. Here in Canada, I live in a major hot spot. I have the terrible knowledge to know that I can easily get the virus because of the recklessness of others within my community. As an introvert, it was easy for me to stay indoors and avoid other people. Indeed, the Ontario Government is not pulling my leg when they ask me to "stay at home" for more than a year now, but last week I broke down mentally and I had to call it a day. This mini escapade managed to do the trick for me (thankfully). I spent the day contacting bloggers to see whether they are interested in reviewing my books. An end of the year plan was also drafted, so I now have a decisive book launch date for "At Peace" which will be at the end of December 2021. The website was renovated, and I am hoping to do the same with my other social media accounts. I suppose the point of this blog post is to let you as the reader know that it is okay to take a break from the world. Sometimes we need space- both introverts and extroverts to simply appreciate those blissful moments of alone time. My books for a lot of readers provided them with a world of escapism during this pandemic, and it seems that I finally needed some alone time to find my own place to escape. Another day of self-care may hopefully do the trick and then I will be able to return to reading fellow indie artist works and rewriting "Far from Home: Book Two." Thank you all for your support! I love you to bits and pieces, Peter
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